Interview

So tommorow is the day where I have to become a client that has to be interviewed by a lawyer from another group. Tbh I'm very nervous, can I do it?

Well basically, as a client, I'll be the one that will approach the lawyer, and shares my grandma story with him or her with the hope that he or she would be able to solve my problems.

The problem is basically about a guy that entered into a contract with a company where I agreed to test their product for them. And because of that I'll have to climb a mountain phewww~~~

After succeeding, it is agreed by us that we will held a dinner gala where I'll become the main character and basically tell my experience in using the product. But somehow, I suddenly fell unwell and I didn't want to go to the dinner. So I told my secretary to just called of the dinner and told the company that I won't be able to come.

Enraged, the company threatens me that the will treat my non attendance as a breach of our contract. And because of that they wishes to bring the matter to the court, and they would like to sue me for 10 million!! Wow!! I could never ever pay that Much money!!

That much just because I couldnt attend such dinner? That's really unfair! Because whatever happens I already done part of my contract, and the most important part too, that is becoming their lab rats. 10 million is just too much! Because whether I attend or not is not important, they could still sell the products!

And thats why I have to meet the lawyer, so he could help me solve the problem. I told him everything except the real reason why I couldnt attend the dinner. Its because I already have an ongoing contract with another company who offers much higher money to me. Its too good to be rejected. If I go to the dinner, I won't be able to enter into a contract with the other company.

So what should I do?

Still remember?

Do you still remember?

"Jangan nakal nakal mim da cop dlu"

Yes, and that will never change, mim da cop dlu hahahaha XD

With you

I know I'm not the best guy,
I know I sometimes I make you mad,
Sometime make you feel like you're not important,
Make you feel like I'm always doubting you.

I over think things a lot,
I annoyed you a lot,
And sometimes post something that will make you feel discontent.

But hey,
I'm just being passionate,
And more importantly being me,
I might make you feel bad sometimes.

But trust me,
Its all because I just wanted to be with you,
More than any other guy could ever feel.

Jealous

I want to take those happy picture with you too..

I want to go there too..

I want to take a picture where you smiled like that, or possibly more..

I want you to only look at me, and not to the other guys..

Because

I can't stand it whenever you're apart
Sometimes I'm worried
Hey are you thinking about me too?
Have your feeling never changed?

Those questions kept popping on my mind
It's not that i'm not trusting you
It's just that I'm worried that someday
I might be nothing to you.

Tell me that I'm not alone
That i'm not walking down through this abyss
All by myself like a lone wolf that's separated from its pack.
Tell me that you'll be here to walk by my side.

Just the thought of you getting close with another guy
It kills me
I'm worried that there's somebody there that's going to,
Stole my position in your heart.

Over thinking kills me,
Do you talk to them the way that you talked to me?
Do you smile to them like the way that you smiled to me?
I really hope that's not the case.

Whatever it is,
Just know that i'm always be there for you
Although not physically,
I'll always be there
Whatever happens,
I'll still be there.

Because I'm your best friend.
You're special friend,
And you're special to me ;)

It Never Changed - Day 8

Its almost at the end of the year, its the time where everyone suddenly become so happy. It contradicts the beginning of the year where everyone looks so lethargic and almost like a zombie. It was announced that the school going to held a festival. A school festival. You know where everyone would eat all day and returned home with a tummy ache. Suddenly, there's a suggestion that the class should participate in the festival by opening up a booth.

That really lightens up Carl's mood. Because he is very excited with such proposal. It's going to become a new experience for him. Gab also seems to be excited with it. But to be honest, will he be needed? After all, Carl doesn't know how to do things, he doesn't know how to cook, he has terrible communication skills and yeah, he is worried. So being a chef is out of the question and being the the one who will take care in the counter? He's too nervous and awkward to do that.

And so the fated day arrived. Carl has just got to the school gate where he was greeted by his fellow classmates. They called up to him to help Gab to bring the carbonated drinks from her sister's car. So the guys brought him to the car. "Why do I suddenly feel so nervous?" It must be meeting her sister make him feel that. So the car's boot was being open. Carl saw a lot of white plastic bags which surely contains the beverages. One or two were handed to him.

When the bags were given to him, Carl eyes opened big. "Oh my god!, these bags are so heavy!" he talks to himself. "No! I must maintain my facial expression and body posture, I cant show them I'm pathetic but I'm a man!" He thinks he should be cool in front of Gab. With a slow and steady walk, he brought the drinks to their booth. Carl glads that it went well.

Then Carl saw a "Dino Milo" sign. There's a cute dinosaur there. "It must be drawn by Gab", Carl was pretty sure that since the art style was clearly Gab's. "Dino Milo? What kind of Milo is that?"
Carl does seem to be interested by such cute name. And so everyone were assigned to their respective assignments. Some were chosen to be a chef and etc. So for Carl, he was given an iron stick and a basket of ice. "Huh? What do I do with this?" Carl with a confused face. Suddenly, Gab talk to him, she asks him to crush the ices to a much tinier pieces. Since, it was from Gab, Carl just nod and starts the operation.

"Well, this is actually quiet hard and tiring". As he was focused in doing it, together with full of responsibilities and passion. Gab suddenly talked to him again. "Can you really do it? You're not tired?" with a cute voice and naughty giggles. A bit embarrassed and caught off guard. Carl quickly answer it with saying "Of course I can" with a very slow voice. Then, Gab continued her work again.

At that time, a thought crossed Carl's mind. "She is so cute", with a little bit of blushing.

Day 8 ended.

It Never Changed - Day 7

Carl put all that past him. Not that he wants to ever remember all that ever again. Let the past be the past and focus more on the future. Past is just like the history, there's nothing we humans could change. All that we can do is to just learn from it and never repeat the same mistake ever again.

One day, during the normal school days, when everyone just got back from recess. Carl saw three silhouettes coming from his class. It was Gab and her friends. Carl saw her face brimming with smiles. She looks embarrassed. But from what, he doesn't know. That have really poked his curiosity, he really wants to find out what has happen. But, he can't just ask her out of the blue can he? It's not good to busy body. That would surely give a bad impressions to Gab. "Oh well, whatever" he said.

So, since he already reaches his class, he quickly went to his seat. There, his he wants to take out his textbooks. Suddenly he finds a letter from under the table. "A letter? What letter is this?", with curiosity he open and read it. The hand writings are so cute, from that he knows that its from a girl. The language is cute and polite so its totally not from a man that just wants to prank him. So, he continued reading it. One of the contents was that, "You're eyes is so beautiful, it's cute especially when you "besar besarkan mata tu", you're nail are so beautiful, who is Cindu? Haaaa probably she heard about it from the boys or accidentally heard about it when the boys pranked Carl by shouting her name randomly. Lastly, there's a halal logo suddenly came out of nowhere. Carl can't hold his laughter, one because it's funny and cute, seconds he is very happy about it. Did somebody likes me? But who is it? She could at least write her name! Boy, he sure is excited.

He then looked around to see whether there's people around him. He then hide it under his table. Then, Carl went out of the classroom for a while. His brothers then came and asked him, "why are u smiling like a psycho right now? Carl tried to hide it from them, but suddenly one of them go to his table and accidentally saw the letter. Carl with a nervous look. The dude then look at it and read it. "Guys look at this! Carl got a love letter!" Everyone the goes woowwww! "Oh god, why didn't I put it in my bag?" With a little bit of depression there. The boys seems so excited. "Wow, Carl now you got an admirer! Do you know who it is?" Carl just nod off, no I don't. Then they just say congratulations. "I'm sure he's gonna smile all day once he gets home or jump on his bed like a happy little child". "No, he's going to frame the letter and hang it on his wall!".

"How the hell did the guys know"? Carl said it on his mind. Anyway, Carl does seem to be happy. I mean it's like a dream for every boy to get a love letter and those dream now has been a reality for Carl. Thank you ;).

Day 7 ended.

It Never Changed - Day 6

Its been 4 days already. Which means today is the last day. Carl is not sure whether he should be happy or sad. He is happy with the facts that he's going to go back home today but the facts that there is a high possibility that he won't ever meet his new friends again bugs him. "These few days have been wonderful" thought himself. "I'm sure gonna miss the happy shower time every morning that I have here", him while unable to hold his laughter.

After the last talk ended. Carl is walking alone towards the mosque. It was then that a girl's voice breaks the silence. Carl thought he was alone. With a friendly introduction, the girl starts a conversation with him. "What's the name of the girl again? It's Cindu Legal isn't it?" Carl mutters to himself. The girl asked him a lot, but Carl already forgotten about it. One of it is his phone number. Carl rejected however, because to him, its wrong to hold any girls number without any purpose. With the sexy skinny pants, Carl increases his pace, because he thought that its not nice for a boy and a girl without any connection walking together. Nevertheless, Cindu gave him her phone number and also her Myspace account. Yes, back then Myspace is the number 1 social network.

He then reaches the mosque. It looks like every other students are looking at him with a very dissatisfied looks. He could senses that the atmosphere back then a bit heavy. Envied faces everywhere. Cindu does seems like a popular girl. Anyway, he ignored it and quickly went to take ablution. While doing it, he heard girl's voices from the other side of the wall which says, "Don't you guys think that the boys from Cloudy Water are so good looking? They're tall too", By hearing that, he bursts into laughter, to the point he almost cried. "Are you kidding me? We are practically nothing back in Cloudy Water!". Carl with disbelief.

Anyway its time for us to go back home. After saying goodbye to everyone from the Golden Bay, the Cloudy Water students took the bus to get back home.

At night, Carl opened his Myspace account and saw that Cindu had already added him as friend. He then just approved it. From there, they would chat together like everyday. Everytime Carl uploads a new photo, she would commented on it by saying "cute". Carl was like, "Really?". Then they're starting to get close. Cindu managed to make Carl feel special. But that however, does not last that long.

One day, she stopped mentioning him in the site. It felt so weird to him, but maybe she's just busy. She'll reply one day. Carl being positive. But a few days have passed, but no replies. Since then, Carl would open the site like every night and wait for her to reply. Weeks and months have passed, but still no sign. But Carl, doesn''t give up, maybe she's just busy so she doesn't have any time to spare. After all, she is a boarding school students.

After months and months passed, she finally replied. But it doesn't sound great. "Carl, we're busy nowadays, So I don't think we'll be able to talk with each other again". With that, it ends. A bit sour, the guy opened up her photo album and later discovered that on her profile picture there's a guy's name. She had never changed her profile picture. It means that she already had a boyfriend from the start. "Then why does she trying to get close with me?". With a grim voice Carl said.

Then he realizes that he had been played from the start. HAHAHA! Carl laughs with the absurdity. Something inside of him had changed. The summer of his heart has turn into an icy cold of winter. Without saying anything, he log off.

"It was such a big mistake". While being expressionless.

Day 6 ended.

It Never Changed - Day 5

I've been staying here for few days already. I wonder what the others are doing right now? In school? I wonder what my family are doing? Are they fine? Carl starting to miss his home and his friends.

Dawn arrived, and Carl wakes up a bit earlier because there's gonna be a 'qiamullail' in the 'surau'. So, he go and take a bath earlier. Although he is very sleepy, the cold water managed to make him very fresh. He looked around the dorm and everyone seems to turn into zombies. A very frightening scene to behold indeed. After all, they're only allowed to sleep only for a few hours.

Arriving there early, he sat on the front. After a while, the imaam came and so the activity started. Its going to be a 'solat tasbih'. To be honest, it was Carl's first time in doing it and so, its quiet alien to him. First, the imaam taught us how to do it. After that, it started. After a while, he's done with it. Carl could feel his hands and legs a bit sore and it turns red. The prayer is quiet long but amidst all that, there is a sense of accomplishments in his heart. He turn around and look around him, the zombies are still here. He giggles a bit. After that its 'subuh prayer'.

After all that over, the students were allowed to return back to their dorm. Some took the time to sleep while Carl uses it too get prepared for breakfast and the agendas of today. Still with his sexy skinny pants, he went to the canteen. Much like before, he really enjoyed his breakfast. Then, the talks begin. What the talks are were about, the writer had already forgotten. But, it must be fun and much better than yesterday.

When he reaches his room, his roommate suddenly called up to him. He asked him whether the girl that sit behind him is cute or not? Carl doesn't know what he's talking about though. Girl? Who? Which girl? He can't recall any girl. Then, his roommate just smiles. Carl was just confused. Whatever he said and straightly went for dinner in the canteen. After all that was done. On his way back to the dorm, a girl appeared, which is his girl classmates. She asked for his number while stating that someone from her dorm wants to get Carl's phone number.

To which Carl refuses as he doesn't know who the girl that had asked is. His classmate  then just say ok.

Getting all confused, he went to his bed. Who would ever want my number? I'm not even attractive. Carl talking to himself.

Day 5 ended.

It Never Changed - Day 4

Since Carl is the type of person that could easily adapt to a new place, he doesn't have any problem to fall asleep on the bed. Although he does feel a bit of discomfort because of the alien surroundings of the dorm, its not really a big problem. After a while he closes his eyes, he fell asleep.

It's all dark before it suddenly turns bright, and a voice accompanies it and later he felt a little bit of a sensation like a hand touching his skins. At first, it was gentle before it turns very wild, he's been rocked by it but he doesn't care and continues to sleep. The slow voice suddenly turns very loud, and it startled him and he finally wakes up. The first thing he sees with his tiny opened eyes was an annoyed faces of his friends. One of them said, "Haishh finally you woke up, about time too, we're about to leave you alone" and they later burst into laughter. "Now, now go take a shower, and prepare for Subuh prayer". Carl just nods. Although his name sounds like someone from the Iberian, he is a Muslim.

With a grumpy face he walks to the shower. He turn on the shower and the cold water hit his body and he was really startled by it. The cold water almost frost him! Anyway lets just skip the shower parts. After he's done with that, he went to wear his baju melayu. Then he went to pray. Done all that, he went back to the dorm in order to prepare for his breakfast and to iron his school uniforms. It was then that he realizes that he had accidentally brought his old pants. "OMG!!! There is no way that I could fit into these!!!" him with his disbelief looks. But since he doesn't have any choice, he just wear that. "Oh, this is so not comfortable!". Carl really starting to regret his doings.

Anyway, done with that, he quickly goes down the stairs to get to the canteen. His tight pants cause it hard for him to move around. From afar, it seems like he is wearing a skinny jean, or in this case, its skinny school pants. Oh not also forget to mention, its very hard to tuck in his shirt. "Do I really have to endure this for four days?", while sighing. Then, he went to the canteen to eat his breakfast. What is it? A curry puff maybe.

And so the first talk begins, everyone would have to go to the venue, which in this case a classroom which is located in a school building and its on the fourth floor. "Another stairs?" With a pants like this, a stair does seem to be his worst enemy. He is worried that his skinny pants might goes prapp! and that would surely be a nightmare. Nevertheless, thank god he managed to safely arrived to the venue without any problems. The talk begun and it primarily about how to answer and succeed in PMR. What makes it worse, today's talk is Maths! I really love maths but not to calculate, and formulas and numbers. Yep I love Maths a lot. Carl talking to himself.

After a few hours, the talk ended, and so they may disperse. There are a lot of another activity but all of it were too generic. Night arrived, and so Carl is very tired, he went on to his bed and fell asleep.

Day 4 ended.

It Never Changed - Day 3

It's almost at the end of the year. Time sure flew fast, like a pigeon when they were freed from its cage. The teacher came into the class and spoke about a camping or is it a "kem sambil belajar" or something else that sounds the same. One thing for sure its an activity where students from our school went to another school and stay there for a few days in or der to attend a seminar.

At first, Carl was not that interested but after being mobbed by his friends to join the camp, he gave in. He also thought to himself, "maybe its a good opportunity for me to be more involved in the curriculum activity", and so, he signed up his name. "Looks like I would have to stay there for quiet a few days huh?" He is quiet nervous considering he doesn't like to ne away from his home, and his favorite bedroom.

One day before the camp, during the night, he prepared for it. Not that kind of people that would carefully chose items they gonna bring together, Carl just picked whatever that came across of his mind, without a second look. Tomorrow has come, Carl together with his friends take the bus to go to the school. During his journey, the radio suddenly played his favorite song by Jay Sean, Down. And so he sang along happily "baby are you down, down, down, down , down, downnn~~~, even the sky is falling down~~. "Pretty amazing how I can remember things like this huh Ina?" Said the writer to himself.

And so after a long journey, they have arrived at their destination, Golden Bay Middle School. First, he would have to bring his luggages to the dorm. "Oh man what did I put in this bag? Its so heavyyy!!" Now he is regretting his packaging last night. When they arrived there, the students from Cloudy Water Middle School, where greeted by the friendly students from the other school.

Since its already pretty late, they quickly show us to our room. "So this is how a boarding school students lived", said him. He chose the below bed, which the beds are double decker. Night came and we were called to the cafeteria for our dinner. Their soy sauce was so delicious! I never tasted a soy sauce as delicious as this. So the dinner ends and they got back to their dorm and there the boys introduced themselves to one another.

"I guess living here for a few days is not that bad". So, while thinking what his classmates are doing today, especially her. Carl fell asleep.

Day 3 ended.

It Never Changed - Day 2

He heard about her name from someone, is it her friends or the teacher? Nevertheless her's was Gabriellina Marian Fernandez. Her friends called her Gab. "Oh i see, so that's what her name is," Carl talking to himself. "I wonder if she is interested in me, I wonder what's her first impression when she sees me?" Carl who is showing a little interest on her. "I wonder what school she was from before and where does she lives?" Showing more and more interests.

But somehow, to him, it was almost impossible for him to talk her. "I want to talk to her or at least say Ola but i'm to embarrassed to do so and she seems like someone from a rich background. I don't think she would ever be interested in a boring and a plain guy like me, maybe I should just forget about it. It feels like I would be ignored if I ever starts a conversation with her." Negativity was on his mind, "what are you thinking Carl?" said the writer in a frustrated tone and a little bit of angry too.

Days passes by, everyday is almost boring, nothing special happens. Gab seems to be able to get used to life here too and that's good. Carl seems to be relieved.

Today got a science class and like always everyone would have to go to the lab. Academic sessions starts like it normally does. Sometimes Carl seems to be able to grab what the teacher is teaching and most of the time he does not. Uwargghhh! I hate labs! Its not comfortable here! The chairs are totally not up to my style, you just can't lay back on this stool or chair. But thankfully, class is over. Which is good to him. One more hour he would surely faint.

So Carl took her text book and other stationaries and put it in his bag and prepared to leave the lab. Suddenly, Gab came to him and said that they had accidentally exchanged their textbooks with one another which surely surprises Carl because he had no idea how could that ever happens. Gab talked to him with a very slow voice to the point that Carl could almost not hear what she's saying. While she was saying that her eyes are not looking at his face, she looked down. Probably because of embarrassment to which the guy understands because he felt the same thing too.

Not being able to find any words to reply her because Carl is not used to talk to girls. That doesn't mean that he never do so, it's just its pretty rare. Because of his poor ability in conversing and also because of his nervousness to talk to girls, he only nods and say 'oh' or possibly ok and gave her the book.

After all that was done. Gab went to her friends and went back home. While she was walking away, he looks at her from the back and he talks to himself. On his mind he kept on thinking on how funny that scene and how could that ever happens? He laugh it off on his mind and start his journey back home.

Day 2 ended.

It Never Changed - Day 1

There is one guy, which basically the main of this short story. His name is Carlo Monteiro Aviedo. Carl for short. He is nothing special. At least that's what he thought about himself. Everyday, he would look into the mirror, with a depressed voice he always mutters, "I wonder what it feels like to be famous, to be somebody that is very good-looking, to be somebody that everyone would want to be friend with". 

"Heyy!!! It's already 7.30!! Please be faster or we gonna be late to school!" His mom voice shocked him. Suddenly being sucked back into the reality, he whimpered. He quickly glances and look towards the clock that's always been hung up on the wall. "Oh gosh, I really am going to be late today!" He said while running as fast as he could towards the car. 

But really, it really is nothing to be surprised about. That's basically what happens in almost every morning. To the point that he thinks that its a routine, and it a must do every day. And so, Carl's life as a form two student started. What's gonna await him in his new beginning? What does fate have in store for him?

The car that his mom drove finally arrived at school. Pretty much like last year, he was late and when he arrived there everybody already stood up and sang the national and school anthems. A little bit embarrassed, he walks to his class and on the way there, he would have to pass through other classes and while he's doing that, everybody would looked at him and that really lowers his confidence because he really doesn't like it if another human stared at him for too long.

Cutting that aside, when he reaches his class, he was pretty happy considering that he could meet his friends, familiar faces and also some new faces he had never seen before. Its a good chance to make some new friends he thought. Anyway, the assembly is over and everyone would lined up and went to their new classes. I hate stairs! He said while some sweat falling from his cheek. Why can't the school build some elevators? That would surely eases everyone. That ridiculous thought always appear on his mind. Although he knew that such thing would always be impossible.

And so, he finally reaches his class. It was somewhere at the back of the school and one could easily say it's pretty isolated from the rest of the school. Everything is so quiet. I like this kind of atmosphere while smiling merrily. Since the class gonna start anytime soon, everybody quickly choose their seatings which gonna be for the rest of the year. Suddenly, he saw a new girl. "She probably just moved here". He said to himself. "She has a very fair and pretty skin, I wonder what's her name is?"

Suddenly, a not so familiar voice rebuked him. A bit startled. Carl quickly looked towards the direction of the voice. It was a girl with a glass and she said something to him but Carl can't really grab what she was saying, probably because of his bad hearings. And so, he just nodded and smile. Then, he looks towards the new girl again not that he realizes that she's going to be very important in the future.

Day 1 ended.

Sometimes

Sometimes I wonder, does she feel the same way as I feel towards her?