It Never Changed - Day 3

It's almost at the end of the year. Time sure flew fast, like a pigeon when they were freed from its cage. The teacher came into the class and spoke about a camping or is it a "kem sambil belajar" or something else that sounds the same. One thing for sure its an activity where students from our school went to another school and stay there for a few days in or der to attend a seminar.

At first, Carl was not that interested but after being mobbed by his friends to join the camp, he gave in. He also thought to himself, "maybe its a good opportunity for me to be more involved in the curriculum activity", and so, he signed up his name. "Looks like I would have to stay there for quiet a few days huh?" He is quiet nervous considering he doesn't like to ne away from his home, and his favorite bedroom.

One day before the camp, during the night, he prepared for it. Not that kind of people that would carefully chose items they gonna bring together, Carl just picked whatever that came across of his mind, without a second look. Tomorrow has come, Carl together with his friends take the bus to go to the school. During his journey, the radio suddenly played his favorite song by Jay Sean, Down. And so he sang along happily "baby are you down, down, down, down , down, downnn~~~, even the sky is falling down~~. "Pretty amazing how I can remember things like this huh Ina?" Said the writer to himself.

And so after a long journey, they have arrived at their destination, Golden Bay Middle School. First, he would have to bring his luggages to the dorm. "Oh man what did I put in this bag? Its so heavyyy!!" Now he is regretting his packaging last night. When they arrived there, the students from Cloudy Water Middle School, where greeted by the friendly students from the other school.

Since its already pretty late, they quickly show us to our room. "So this is how a boarding school students lived", said him. He chose the below bed, which the beds are double decker. Night came and we were called to the cafeteria for our dinner. Their soy sauce was so delicious! I never tasted a soy sauce as delicious as this. So the dinner ends and they got back to their dorm and there the boys introduced themselves to one another.

"I guess living here for a few days is not that bad". So, while thinking what his classmates are doing today, especially her. Carl fell asleep.

Day 3 ended.

It Never Changed - Day 2

He heard about her name from someone, is it her friends or the teacher? Nevertheless her's was Gabriellina Marian Fernandez. Her friends called her Gab. "Oh i see, so that's what her name is," Carl talking to himself. "I wonder if she is interested in me, I wonder what's her first impression when she sees me?" Carl who is showing a little interest on her. "I wonder what school she was from before and where does she lives?" Showing more and more interests.

But somehow, to him, it was almost impossible for him to talk her. "I want to talk to her or at least say Ola but i'm to embarrassed to do so and she seems like someone from a rich background. I don't think she would ever be interested in a boring and a plain guy like me, maybe I should just forget about it. It feels like I would be ignored if I ever starts a conversation with her." Negativity was on his mind, "what are you thinking Carl?" said the writer in a frustrated tone and a little bit of angry too.

Days passes by, everyday is almost boring, nothing special happens. Gab seems to be able to get used to life here too and that's good. Carl seems to be relieved.

Today got a science class and like always everyone would have to go to the lab. Academic sessions starts like it normally does. Sometimes Carl seems to be able to grab what the teacher is teaching and most of the time he does not. Uwargghhh! I hate labs! Its not comfortable here! The chairs are totally not up to my style, you just can't lay back on this stool or chair. But thankfully, class is over. Which is good to him. One more hour he would surely faint.

So Carl took her text book and other stationaries and put it in his bag and prepared to leave the lab. Suddenly, Gab came to him and said that they had accidentally exchanged their textbooks with one another which surely surprises Carl because he had no idea how could that ever happens. Gab talked to him with a very slow voice to the point that Carl could almost not hear what she's saying. While she was saying that her eyes are not looking at his face, she looked down. Probably because of embarrassment to which the guy understands because he felt the same thing too.

Not being able to find any words to reply her because Carl is not used to talk to girls. That doesn't mean that he never do so, it's just its pretty rare. Because of his poor ability in conversing and also because of his nervousness to talk to girls, he only nods and say 'oh' or possibly ok and gave her the book.

After all that was done. Gab went to her friends and went back home. While she was walking away, he looks at her from the back and he talks to himself. On his mind he kept on thinking on how funny that scene and how could that ever happens? He laugh it off on his mind and start his journey back home.

Day 2 ended.

It Never Changed - Day 1

There is one guy, which basically the main of this short story. His name is Carlo Monteiro Aviedo. Carl for short. He is nothing special. At least that's what he thought about himself. Everyday, he would look into the mirror, with a depressed voice he always mutters, "I wonder what it feels like to be famous, to be somebody that is very good-looking, to be somebody that everyone would want to be friend with". 

"Heyy!!! It's already 7.30!! Please be faster or we gonna be late to school!" His mom voice shocked him. Suddenly being sucked back into the reality, he whimpered. He quickly glances and look towards the clock that's always been hung up on the wall. "Oh gosh, I really am going to be late today!" He said while running as fast as he could towards the car. 

But really, it really is nothing to be surprised about. That's basically what happens in almost every morning. To the point that he thinks that its a routine, and it a must do every day. And so, Carl's life as a form two student started. What's gonna await him in his new beginning? What does fate have in store for him?

The car that his mom drove finally arrived at school. Pretty much like last year, he was late and when he arrived there everybody already stood up and sang the national and school anthems. A little bit embarrassed, he walks to his class and on the way there, he would have to pass through other classes and while he's doing that, everybody would looked at him and that really lowers his confidence because he really doesn't like it if another human stared at him for too long.

Cutting that aside, when he reaches his class, he was pretty happy considering that he could meet his friends, familiar faces and also some new faces he had never seen before. Its a good chance to make some new friends he thought. Anyway, the assembly is over and everyone would lined up and went to their new classes. I hate stairs! He said while some sweat falling from his cheek. Why can't the school build some elevators? That would surely eases everyone. That ridiculous thought always appear on his mind. Although he knew that such thing would always be impossible.

And so, he finally reaches his class. It was somewhere at the back of the school and one could easily say it's pretty isolated from the rest of the school. Everything is so quiet. I like this kind of atmosphere while smiling merrily. Since the class gonna start anytime soon, everybody quickly choose their seatings which gonna be for the rest of the year. Suddenly, he saw a new girl. "She probably just moved here". He said to himself. "She has a very fair and pretty skin, I wonder what's her name is?"

Suddenly, a not so familiar voice rebuked him. A bit startled. Carl quickly looked towards the direction of the voice. It was a girl with a glass and she said something to him but Carl can't really grab what she was saying, probably because of his bad hearings. And so, he just nodded and smile. Then, he looks towards the new girl again not that he realizes that she's going to be very important in the future.

Day 1 ended.

Sometimes

Sometimes I wonder, does she feel the same way as I feel towards her?

The Great Adventure of Amril : Journey Across Dimensions

Bagaikan hari yg biasa aku lalui, setiap hari terasa bagaikan semalam. Tiada apa yang baru, hidup yg sungguh membosankan. Suara aku berkata-kata di dalam minda ku. Setiap manusia pasti inginkan yg berlainan, hidup yg lebih mencabar. Sedang asyik aku melayan benak mindaku, tiba-tiba sahaja ada satu suara yg halus, agak merdu memanggil namaku dari arah belakang. Siapakah dia? Aku segera menoleh ke belakang, oh rupa-rupanya Sasha, rakan sekelas ku di kampus dahulu. Tapi mengapakah dia menegur ku? Sedangkan aku dahulu langsung tidak pernah wujud.di dalam dunia nya.
"Amril sekarang kerja kat mana?" Tanyanya sopan.
"Oh masih lagi menganggur, bukan senang nak cari kerja sekarang ni" Jawab ku spontan.
Seperti tidak puas hati dengan jawapanku, dia memasamkan mukanya, tetapi masih kelihatan comel.
"Hmm, bagusla macam tu, barulah masa depan cerah" Dengan nada sinis dia memerli ku.
Aku segera beredar dari situ, manala tahu kan lagi banayak perlian yang bakal menanti jika aku kekal di situ. Tetapi dia mengekori ku dari belakang. Perasaan kurang enak menyelubungi diriku.
"Apa masalah dengan minah ni!?" Jiwa ku mula memberontak.
"Amril tunggu! Aku sebenarnya ada benda nak cakap ni, aku perlukan pertolongan kau!"
Tanpa menghiraukan permintaannya, aku segera meneruskan langkahku.
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Di rumah ku, aku terkenangkan peristiwa yg berlaku siang tadi, wajah sugul Sasha mulai terbayang di dalam minda ku. Apa sebenarnya dia nak kat aku? Patut ke aku buat kat dia macam tu? Semakin lesap dibuai persoalan di minda, malam semakin tua dan aku pun terlena.
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Satu bunyi kuat telah menyedarkan dari mati sementara ku. Bagaikan gendang yg dipalu dengan sekuat kuatnya, menggetarkan jiwa raga walaupun seorang pahlawan medieval. Apabila sahaja mataku dibuka dengan luas, sinaran mentari menembusi retina ku. Membuatkan ku buta sebentar. Aku terpaku, di manakah aku? Padang rumput hijau yg sungguh luas mata memandang. Bagaikan berada di sebuah desa permai di Scotland. Tetapi itu tidak mengapa, Mata aku cuba dizoomkan bagaikan sebuah binocular ke arah yg tidak jauh dariku, kelihatan ada aktiviti manusia di situ, di situlah agaknya bunyi gendang itu datang. Aku meluru ke arah itu, manalah tahu aku boleh mendapatkan bantuan. Namun apabila aku sampai di situ, harapan ku musnah. Bagaikan nak berak tapi ada sembelit. Manusia sedang berperang, potong memotong, penggal memenggal, cucuk mencucuk. Satu adegan yg kurang enak untuk dipertontonkan, terlalu ganas. Nasib baik aku atas 18. Aku pun duduk di situ, takkanlah nak join pulak, seni pertahanan diri pun tak tahu, walaupun pernah jadi pengerusi persatuan silat dekat sekolah dulu, tapi member cuma ada 5 orang je, jadi tak pernah berlatih sangat. Kalau nak lawan pedang, aku memang member kelab fencing, tapi first day pun dah ponteng, istilah en garde jela yg aku tau. Sedang aku asyik menonton, tiba-tiba popcorn and large size cola jatuh dari langit. Fuhh da macam pergi gsc, hmmm tukarla MBO sebab lagi selalu pergi and lagi dekat dengan rumah.
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Peperangan tamat, nampaknya pihak warna merah menang dan yang biru kalah, disebabkan ini perlawanan kalah mati dan bukannya group stage, pihak biru akan dibunuh. Seorang demi seorang ditikam dengan rakusnya hinggalah tinggal seorang sahaja yg tinggal, aikk perempuan? Askar merah terhenti seketika kerana mungkin terkejut. Mereka kelihatan seakan akan berbincang. Tidak lama selepas itu, mungkin telah mencapai kata sepakat, mereka menjelir jelir lidah mereka bagaikan anjing yg ingin disula. Faham sangat la tu, perempuan itu ketakutan, lalu dia menjerit. Gema suaranya sampai ke eardrum telinga ku. Ehh? Itu kan suara Sasha! Aku pandang sekali lagi, ye itu memang Sasha, gadis yg pernah ku ngorat selama 5 tahun tapi hanya mengambil masa 5 minit untuk merejectku. Tanpa memikirkan bahaya yg bakal menanti, aku berlari ke arah mereka. Penjahat itu tersentak dengan kehadiranku. Aku mencapai sebilah pedang dari seorang pahlawan biru yg telah kecundang. En garde! Aku bersedia dan segera melibas pedang itu macam orang gila sambil menutup mataku. And of course, aku yg kena tibai, aku pun ditangkap sekali. Muka Sasha bagaikan tidak percaya, kerana adegan ini jauh sekali dari fairy tale mahupun di pawagam. Langsung tidak mainstream. Akhirnya penjahat itu mengikat kami dan membawa kami naik satu kereta kuda, macam yang dalam permulaan game Skyrim. Aku hanya termenung memandang Sasha, dan dia terdiam seribu bahasa. Aku membuka mulut ku, dan bertanya Sasha is that you? Dan kemudiannya dia mengganguk. Aku terkejut.
To be continued..

Melancholia

Baggy eyes, wrinkles and chapped lips. It could clearly be seen as he stares at his own reflection on the old and dusty mirror. His fingers shake, bringing the rusty razor-blade wobbling to his skin in zig zag lines. His tears speed down on his face like shooting streak down skies.  This boy has abandoned the love for his body and as he slices that soft thin epidermis, he gasps.

Out of regrets, mentally traumatized, he talks to himself

“What have I done? I’m now a criminal!”

The water keeps on falling to the palm of his hand as he forgot to close the water pipe. He washes his face with the water that have the smell of an iron. He cries again as he remembered how his beloved angel dumped him, how his friends turned their back at him and how he accidentally murdered his own teacher.  His mind suddenly starts to blur, and then it fades into pitch black. Suddenly, the memories of a few hours ago came back at him.

The morning dew starts to fall from it’s fresh green leaves, the birds are happily singing and the sun rises up. He came out from his house and starts his journey to his torture dungeon, school.

“Looks like I’m early today” Him while whistling.

Arrive at school, attending the classes like he always do every day. Nothing out of the ordinary. Until the recess time, his girlfriend suddenly sends him a message, that they can no longer be together and they should stop seeing each other.  Not satisfied with the text, he quickly run as fast as lightning, trying to find the girl, but what shattered his heart the most is, the girl is currently eating, laughing and having fun with another guy. Now he knows that he has been dumped. Tears start to fall from his eyes and dampen his cheeks.

The school bell rang again, to show that the break was over,  everyone hurriedly went to their respective classroom. But not for this boy, he walks slowly like the time was slowed down. Of course, he reach the class a bit late from the others.  The teacher shouts at him but the boy didn’t give any responses, he continue walking to his desk like nothing happens. Making the teacher turned into a mad bull and the teacher slap him.

The boy’s anger surfaces, like been possessed by an evil demon he shouts back at the teacher. Much to startles the teacher but it doesn’t end like that. The boy have gone really mad, losing his mind he strangles the teacher with both of his hand. Causing the teacher too meets her death. The whole class have gone panic. The scene was ugly indeed.

The boy suddenly regain back his consciousness but it’s a little bit too late, the crime has already been committed. He is still inside of his bathroom. Suddenly, he could hear a knock from the door. He is down to the wire, it’s the police and he is very sure of it.

“Time to face my judgement” With a faint smile and low voice, he walks away and surrendered himself to the police.

Missing You

Do you miss me like I miss you,
Do you ever think about me,
Even just for a seconds,
I want to meet you,
That's all I need.

I hope you're happy,
Smiling like you always does,
Cause yours could soothe the pain,
That I couldn't bear any longer.

Your laughs,
Your smiles,
Your perfumes,
Your presence,
Is what I ever need.